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Hello everyone! Welcome to dyingfilmmaker13's blog.

Today I'm typing with a lot of nostalgia in my stone-heart, that's because I'll talk about the different jobs that I always dreamed about, so without further detour let's begin. When I was a kid I wanted to be a teacher, I was like 6 years old but the idea of teaching how to read to other people filled my tiny little heart with tons of joy, I though about it like practically opening a new world for other people's exploration. I was decided to become the best teacher in the world, but as I was growing up I realized that my social skills were well below average compared to other people, so my first dream job was discarded.

Later I wanted to be an actor, I always participated in the school plays for special events or some workshops. Playing different characters with other ideas or exploring varied personalities and taking some distance with my own way of being was an activity that I really enjoyed. People said that I was good, and in that age (from 12 to 15) I started to search for academies and universities that offered the career. But later, I watched some actors who were really really good, and I was covered with insecurity, so my second dream job was discarded. Sometimes I think about what would it be of myself if I would studied to become an actor instead of a filmmaker, maybe I would not be dying and depressed all the time. Maybe, someday I'll consider to play a role in a small project develop by myself, that would be nice.

And finally from my fifteen I was invaded for the filmmaking universe, I started to watch bunch of movies and TV shows until today, I'm not regret of choosing this career, anyway I always have thought that this is not my last showdown in a University.

I have to say that this was the deeper entry in my blog, I'm glad that I'm writing this one week later because just the teacher and Lii, my stalker that reads my blog from time to time, will read this one. See you all my fictional reader in other superficial entry next time.